When a person is told that they are going to die, they say that we all experience stages of emotion.

Denial

Anger

Bargaining

Depression

Acceptance

Now I have not been diagnosed with any kind of fatal ailment.  I have not lost any of my anatomical functions.  I am healthy. I am young.  Many people would look at me and say that I am at the pinnacle stage of my life.  I have everything ahead of me.  Now I just don’t see it like that.  I can’t help but feel like I have already gone through these stages of emotion.  I feel like death is looming over my head.  I am so aware of it because it is the only certain thing.  I now feel like I’ve finally reached “acceptance”.  I know my death is imminent.  Life is but a fleeting moment.  There is nothing I can do to change that.  But this acceptance has turned me into this robot of a person.  I have no time to feel emotional when it comes to my own progression.  “Acceptance” has shown me clear lines and the paths that are available to me.  The paths that only I can create.  Life can be that simple.  I believe if we really try to understand what it means if our life were to end, we would never waste a single moment.  We wouldn’t waste time being petty with our loved ones.  We will open our hearts to them and let them see it all.  And we would let them in too.  The more we know and love who we are, the more we can be loved.  Everyday of our life we need to constantly remind ourselves that we are the most important person.  We need to be at the very tip top point of the highest tier.  We need to be hypersensitive when it comes to analyzing who we are, how we affect others, and what our actions and our words really mean. We cannot waste time shying away from these things.  We cannot let pride blind us from seeing who we really are.  I know what my flaws are.  There is nothing no one can say about me that I don’t already know.  My body is literally flayed open for all the world to see and damn am I fucking happy. 

So yes, “acceptance”, this is where I am.